I have yet to write much about my pregnancy on this blog so it is about time because I am almost 17 weeks! This ultrasound above was taken about 12 weeks. We are SO thrilled to add another little baby to our family! I have known we weren't done having kids yet even though life with three kids feels pretty chaotic at times. I think that's mainly due to a very busy two-year-old :) But we knew it was time and we are blessed to be expecting again!
So I feel like I often sugar-coat things on this blog because obviously I want to remember the good and happy times for our little family. But I feel like for my own record, I want to write about how hard these past three months have been. They have probably been some of the hardest months of my entire life. And it's all because morning sickness has been a beast. I never had morning sickness with my boys...never felt nauseous or ever threw up. Then with Callie's pregnancy I was really morning sick (or really, all-day-sick) until about the 12th week. Well, for this pregnancy I was anticipating a little morning sickness again but nothing as hard as it has been. I'm nearly 17 weeks and still not 100% although I am doing better this week than I have for a long time. It has felt like the never-ending sickness all day every day...but I'm finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
The constant nausea and daily vomiting are draining - not just for me but for the entire family. There were days I felt so sick that I laid on the couch doing just the bare essentials for the entire day. Taking care of the busiest two-year-old imaginable and being sick has been so hard. Before I was pregnant, I was feeling much more on top of things. Once I got pregnant, I had little energy to do the basics. My family lived off of frozen pizza and pancakes. I think one of the hardest parts has been not having the energy and health to be the mom I want to be. I feel like I throw up and feel exhausted, then have to go right out and help make the kids lunch, drive them to their activities, answer the door, help them with homework...all the typical mom stuff... and I'm physically there but not always mentally or emotionally because I feel so crummy. I have tried to put on a happy face but that has been hard to do at times.
Luckily I have the sweetest, most helpful husband in the world to pick up the slack. He has been Mr. Mom for these past three months. I have had so many other friends and family help me when I needed help...I am so blessed with amazing people in my life. Even though these past three months have been challenging, we are still so grateful to be pregnant and so excited to welcome a baby this spring. I know I won't be sick forever (as I am already feeling better) but I still wanted to to write down my pregnancy thoughts.
I am so excited to find out if this is a boy or girl this time. I keep thinking it's a girl just because I have been sick like Callie's pregnancy but who knows?! Maybe it's just because I am getting older (even though I don't feel like 28 is THAT old) But I guess we will see in a few weeks!
It's hard to believe we will soon be a family of SIX!
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